blow with the wind

Baru sama sehari kemarin orang itu bilang ingin bersama tapi setelahnya dia hilang entah kemana.Membuat aku bingung dan khawatir.Hilangnya itu saat die bu

His Diary

A friend of mine suddenly acted so strange when we were chatting.His language was going to rude.
I noticed he said"MUHFUCKER" Might be he meant"Motherfucker".It was unusual he acted like that when we were chatting or talking.
He told me that he was drunk,he said "I'm just on frugs and alcohol".I was so down when I heard what he was saying.I kept chatting him,I won't he do something bad at that time.I asked him"Are you ok?"Then he answer "Fine never better,I feel high".I never met with drunk person in the real life before,nor I know how to manage the situation.Then He tried to explain me what made him so down.

"Why am I the way I am?Why do the demons attack me mpre than others?

"Why does my mind work the way it does?It must be my past.It must be the death,

carnage,pain,loss and hell I've experienced"

"I walk through tragedies in life like I am emotionless."

"I walk through the flames withouth flinching'

"People find me cold,But if they only knew"

"Some think I am invicible because of all the time I should of been dead,But I know it's just a matter of time."

"In really I am as weak as a human can be."

"All I do is contemplate my past"

"When I imagine my friends overdosing on drugs,Breathing their last breath."

"I imagine it being me"

"I have nightmares the majority of the time,the emotions have become physical."

"It takes everything inside of me just to wake up"

"But hardest thing is Pretending to be Happy"
"I get on my kness and pray constantly and the devil still wins"
"He always win"
"I just wish those times I was overdosing on drugs or laying on the pavement bleeding"
"It was it"
I wish I couldbe gone"
I wish I was gone"
"I don't fear death,but I fear the wait"
"I don't even care if I go to hell anymore,It's done for me"

For the first time I read it,I thought  it was just a song lyrick,because he ever showed me some lyrick.All he told me that it was his DIARY,his toughts.

I wish I could help him,right there beside him,and jsut help him not to be so giving up like that.

All I can do now to Pray for him,May God blesses him(Amiin)

 

       

Blow of The Wind

Kutitip Rindu pada jarak yang terlalu terbentang

Biarlah angin yang meniupkan rasa ini sampai disisimu

Hingga kau dapat merasakan apa yang ingin ku sampaikan

Kutitip Mimpi pada jarak yang terlihat samar

Biarkan ia menghampirimu melalui hembusan angin

Hingga kau dapatiku nanti dalam mimpi yang menyata

Seakan mimpi-mimpiku itu mulai terasa dekat

Hingga satu diantaranya ingin kau wujudkan

Patut seberkas senyum aku haturkan

Saat kau dapati nanti

Hari-hari yang ingin kau lalui bersamaku

Pasti kita dapati,

Terpaannya kian kencang

Ku harap kau akan bertahan

Dengan keegoisanku 

Dengan imaji gilaku

Dengan angin yang terus berhembus diantara kita

화이팅^^

I wanna share this text,just to remind me that we didn't live alone,still a lot of people who love us

Do you remember me, who was easily
scarred, easily cried, easily got hurt?
I’m still like that, I’m still the same
I wonder how you will be
when you see me like this

Even if you easily turn away,
easily get farther apart
I know I won’t easily forget you
If you see me, still the same, still like this
You will call me a fool

I want and want you – and one more thing
I hurt and hurt but still, just once
Even if it wears out and wears out
Even if the tears don’t dry
If only we can go back to the beginning

There are times when I despise
the moment we first faced each other
I’m like this sometimes even though
I can’t breathe if I don’t
allow myself to long for you

I want and want you – and one more thing
I hurt and hurt but still, just once
Even if it wears out and wears out
Even if the tears don’t dry
If only we can go back to the beginning

If, if you ever,
at least once, in your life
If you sometimes have days where
your heart aches because of me
If, at least once, in your life

And one more thing – remember this
Even if it’s only you, you should live properly

If, if you ever,
at least once, in your life
If you sometimes have days where
your heart aches because of me
If, at least once, in your life

 화이팅^^

A Vent of My Heart

Tak ada satupun yang akan kau dapatkan dengan mudah,semua butuh proses.Ilmiahnya setiap ada aksi pasti ada reaksi.Lantas jika berdiam diri saja akankah kemudahan itu menghampirimu?tentu saja tidak,toh Tuhan sudah mewantikan kita bahwa tanpa adanya usaha kita dalam merubah diri tak akan Dia merubah dengan serta merta.Tidak ada satupun yang akan kau dapatkan tanpa pernah kau mencoba untuk menggapainya,entah itu dengan usaha sebisamu atau dengan bantuan orang lain,yang jelas sudah berusaha dan berupaya untuk menggapainya setidaknya itulah prosesnya.

Suatu ketika aku pernah mengeluh pada Tuhan saat aku melihat keadaan temanku,yang seolah hidupnya lurus-lurus saja tanpa ada aral melintangi setiap kesehariannya.Belakangan baru aku sadar bahwa hidup seperti itu hambar sama sekali tidak ada tantangan.Menyesal sudah mengeluh pada-Nya??Tidak terlalu,karena dari sana aku belajar mendekat pada-Nya,berupaya meraih cinta-Nya.Going back to my Friend.Yah dia itu anak satu-satunya,yang aku pikir semua apa yang dia inginkan akan dengan segera diberikan ya tentu oleh kedua orang tuanya,terus dia ga usaha dong Tuhan?dan pertanyaan itu yang menggelayuti benakku setiap kusadari bahwa hidupnya begitu mudah.Mungkin itu yang namanya iri,pada saat itu aku sama sekali tidak menyadari bahwa itu adalah salah satu bentuk keirian.Berusaha membanding-bandingkan keadaanku dengannya itu seperti membandingkan bulan dan langit.Kau pasti bisa menebak bahwa saat itu aku menganggap bahwa Tuhan sedikit bermain-main dengan kehidupannku,,yah kalian tidak salah menebak.

Beberapa tahun berlalu semenjak aku tak lagi duduk di bangku formal pembelajaran aku mulai bergulat dengan kerasnya kenyataan hidup,yang semakin menyadarkanku bahwa memang tidak ada yang terlalu dengan mudahnya dapat kau dapatkan.Kenyataan mengantarkanmu entah itu memandang hidup ini menjadi lebih dewasa atau malah menjadi semakin kekanakan.Aku merasa setelah mengenal kerasnya hidup menjadikanku di satu sisi dewasa sedangkan di sisi lainnya malah tambah membuatku menjadi anak kecil yang senang merajuk,entah itu pada Tuhan atau pada ibuku.like a pair of pie different sensation for each slice.Menyadari kepribadian ganda yang merasukiku aku semakin asik dengan kehidupan yang aku inginkan,sedikit menjauh dari lingkungan sekitar.Ini bukan berarti hidup terasing di dalam hutan tapi lebih ke menyibukanku dengan bebereapa stuff yang hanya membuat aku nyaman.

Yah tanpa diduga aku bertemu dengan orang which is tottaly new,dengan kepribadian yang unik.uhhhh mulanya sama sekali tidak terpikir untuk sejauh ini.Dari awal kemunculannya kami sangat tidak harmonis,dia sangat sensitive untuk hal-hal tertentu,begitupun aku yang bersikap seenaknya.Tetapi Tuhan masih menyatukan kami,menjadikan kami sedekat ini sebagai saudara,Thank God^^.Sampai detik aku menjejakan jari-jariku ini dia masih bersedia menjadi sahabat sekaligus kakak baru untuk ku (Terimakasih) MERCIIIIIIII Kakaku^^

Aku"Kugi Karma"

"Bukankah kebahagiaan itu kita yang rasakan,jadi suasanakan"

Narative one"Parakeet king"

HOW THE PARAKEET KING REGAINED HIS FREEDOM

A parakeet king and his subjects once had their nests in a huge tall tree in one of Buliurang forest.They were always up early in the morning,usuallly before sunrise,to make ready for the flight to far-off place in search of food.Late in the evening they returned home,then stayed in their nests to rest till the next morning.This happened day after day,for such was their life.

But one bright morning th they discovered to their consternation that there was no possibility of their leaving their nests.Their wings and bodies were glued together.”why?”They wondered,but they did not get any answer.

“what can we do?”They asked each other in panic.Only the Parakeet king was calm.He said “I think somebody has come by day to snare us.A human bein  must have done this to catch us.You know we can speak,we can imitate human speech aand therefore everybody wants us in the house.This person can sell u for lots of money or he can also prepare delicious food of us for his family.”

“All right then,but how can we escape now?”Asked one bird

“Don’t worry.”The king answered.”I have an idea.This morning someone will surely come to find out whether he was successful in snaring us.When he arrives here,don’t move,lies as if dead.He will certainly think we are dead and then he will throw us to the ground.When you are on the ground,keep still and count to ninety nine.This will mean that all of us have fallen,then fly away together.Understand?”They nodded.

The king was right.A few hours later,the birds saw a boy approaching their tree.He looked upwards and saw the birds lying in their nests.

“How lucky I am!”He whispered in joy.”All of them are still in their nests!Hmm,I’ll get plenty of money.I can buy fine clothes and something for my parents.”It was this boy called Anthony,who had put lime in the nests to catch the birds.Full of expectation,h climbed up the tree but great was his dis appoinment on discovering that all the creatures were dead.

“Unlucky me!”He cried.Annoyed at the sad discovery,he flung all of them one by one to the ground.The parakeet king’s nest was on the highest branch of the tree and therefore the king was the last to be throen to the ground.But just as the boy was about to throw the bird down,his knife fell out of his pocket.The sound of its fall caused the birds on the ground tothink that their number was complete,and therefore they all fleew away at the same moment.The birds,as well as Anthony,were surprised,the birds on discovering that their king was not in their group and Anthony of finding that the birds were not really dead at all.Now he realizdd that the birds had played a trick upon him.

“How stupid I am!”He grumbled.”But never mind,another time I’llbe lucky.”While he was standing under the tree h noticed a bird fell down at teh lower branch of a nearby tree.The bird couldn’t fly away as there was still lime on his wings and legs which held him fast to the branch.Time after time he attempted to get loose,but in vain.

“Well!”Anthony thouight,”It is the parakeet king,how beautifull he looks!”Anhtony stealthily approached the bird and in one moment he got hold of his legs.Al;though the parakeet struggled to get free,he could not,for the grasp of the boy’s hand was too firm for the little bird.

“Poor me!”Lamented the unlucky creature.”This boy will prepare a delicious meal of me for his family.”

Anthony took the bird home.But on the way the bird suddenly spoke to him,”Please don’t kill me.I’ll bring you much wealth and happiness.”

“Can i trust you?”

“You’ll see,just let me live,”The parakeet king answered.

On arriving home Anthony the put he bird in a beuautiful yelloow cage and hung it on the front of his house.There every morning he sang his lovely song to the great enjoyment af all around.His subject too had heard him and they flew tot he house,sitting on the ridge of the roof.Soon the beauty and the mekpdious voice of the small creature became known all through the land.People came from every corner of the country to see and hear the bird sing,bringing with them noce food,money and fine clothes for Anthony.Soon Anthony became a wealthy man and didn’t having trusted the bird.

The fane of the bird also reached the king’s eara.He too wanted to see the bird and hear him sing.Thererfore a messenger was sent from the court to Anthony with instruction to come to the place of the king,bringing the bird with him.This was a great day for Anthony.He put on his best clothes and mad for the palace,carrying the bird in a beutiful,brand new cage.On his arrival at the palace gate,a courtier met him and took him into the presence of the king.The latter was already sitting with other guests in the big hall where the bird was to sing.

High and low,loud and soft,sounded the melodious voice,as clear as a bell,that came from the bird’s throat.The king and the aydience were very pleased.

“No instrument whatsoevr could surpass that heavenly voice,”Thet said.

After the performance Anthony was asked to sell the bird to the king.As he himslef was eager to keep the bird,he hesistated but the bird whispered to him”Don’t be afraid,please sekk me to the king.You won’t regret it,it will be to your advantage.”Up to that moment t

E bird hadn’t disappointed him,so why not trust in this time?Therefore Anthony presented the parakeet to the king.In return he received a great amount of money,besides valuable presents.From that time on,Anthony was the wealthiest man in the village.

At the royal court the parakeet king lived a truly kingly life.His cage was made of gold and his food was delicious.Nevertheless,a gold cage was no match for life of freedom in the forest.He pined for his subjects.Flying together with them in the air to far off place was the life he desired,this would sham death and this de did one bright morning.he lay at te bottom of his cage,making no movement whatsoever.Thw keepere thought he was dead.Hearing about the death of the beloved bird,the king was filled with sadness.He stood near the cage with tears running down his cheeks.

“Dear bird,I’ll never hear your voice again,”He whispered.Then he ordered a stately burial for the bird in the palace garden,which was full of beautiful flowers.However,when the bird was laid on the ground while the grave was being dug,all of a sudden he spread his wings and flew high into the sky,out of reach of all those present.

“Free!”Shouted the parakeet king in joy,as he looked for his subjects in order to live happily with them in the forest.

Finally he can regain his freedom and flew away whereever he wants to go.He met with his subjects again and did fly togehter,they built  beautiful nests as a king.

Truly Madly Deeply

 Again one lyrick inspire me to write down here,ok tonight I feel so reliefe just want to lie down while write this note,i don't care who will read or just ignore this,,really don't care.Just I try to amuse my self yes yes I'm here atleast still breathing,no matter what happen just life my live be calm Down Enov.
This song performed by Seven Garden,I like this song since i heard it on radio forgot when but  really in love with this,So have fun my self with this lyrick...Ok Enov Ciayo^^

Truly Madly Deeply

Seven Garden

I'll be your dream I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do
I will be strong I will be faithful 'cause I'm counting on


A new beginning
A reason for living
A deeper meaning


Chorus:
I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me


And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish to send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry
The tears of joy for all the pleasure in the certainty
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of
The highest powers
In lonely hours
The tears devour you
I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me
Oh can you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'Cause its standing right here before you
All that you need will surely come


I'll be your dream I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be you hope I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly deeply do


I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

"Yes I wanna stand with you on a mountain,but i don't know who wants to live with me on a mountain,ahahaha silly Enov,and where is the mountain that I will live?"

so Enjoy this video too seven garden truly madly deeply